idontevenknow

fuuuckkk. lately i just felt hella unsatisfied with my life. I'm pissed off ALL the time for no fucking reason. I been fuckin everything up and it just makes things worse. Seems like nothing goes right. I don't even no why i get up in the morning anymore. Life is like a constant stream of "Fuck You's" that fate has directed rite at me. But throughout all this, i gotta walk around with a fuckin smile on my face acting like everythings so fuckin great. otherwise people are like "wtf? why are u bein such a dick? calm down. STFU ur an asshole, ur a jerk, ur stupid...etc" I feel like im hella trapped, stuck in a loop of frustration, anger, disappoinment, and sadness. FUCK THAT. im so fucking sick of this shit. I really want it to get better like ASAP. BUT the only good thing about all this shit is that its so horrible that, according to my theory, this shits gotta come around and turn into HELLA GOOD ass times....... unelss the good times have alredy happened and this is the turnaround from them. that would fuckin suck. I really needa take out my rage and shit on that dude. omg if he comes around again, its fuckin over for him, he aint gettin away again. no matter wat it takes